☆ my encounters with the tidiness of times and spaces ☆
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Today I purchased a packet of tampons, but each one had a different color wrapper. I tipped them all out of their box, and spent the next hour organising the colours in a certain relation to each other. I hated the dark colour of the purple ones, and couldn't stand them being all grouped together. I had to arrange them so that each colour did not sit next to or adjacent to another of the same colour, or a similar colour. There wasn't an even amount of each colour some I couldn't come up with a formula. I was unable to do this to my satisfaction.
A 30 year old Academic, I suffer mild but clinical Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and consequent panic attacks. I envisage physical spaces, events, time periods, and sometimes even conversations as having spatial qualities which then need to be clean, smooth, ordered, or clear. It's usually tidiness not cleanliness which is an issue for me, and my OCD behavior is a direct response to stress or depression.
I hope that my blogged experiences are helpful or informative to any readers, and I would be interested in being in contact with anyone who suffers a similar form of OCD as I.
☆ my no-crap promise ☆
I won't blog about anything other than my experiences with and my reflections on OCD, as that is the primary purpose of this blog.